missing you.
Saturday, July 30, 2005, 3:42 PM
And having a friend like Atika isn't helping at all! Stupid biatic biatch. hehe. My dear Atika has juz got into a relationship. So she's in the happy-i-can't-wait-to-see-him feeling all the time. Honeymoony period i put it. And that disguest me. Not the Atika i know back in school a year ago! That rugged "i-hate-guys" attitute. Nw, She smilling and skipping all the time. Smile and grins when her hp sounds. I can even see gleem and glitters in her eyes everytime she talks abt her bf. Seeing her in such moods make me wanna go dwn the road and allow cars-no- huge tank trucks to hit me dwn! hahahhaa.Then, she tells me everytime she kisses him, she felt butterflies in the stomach and fireworks in the background. Well, everytime she said that juz brought goosebums, spoilts my lunch and brings omen to my day! hehee. OKOK.
From the way i've blog it. I hate Atika rite?? No. I luv her. hahahaa. I'm just jelous and green in envy i have to admit. I happy for her also. Cuz i nvr seen her in such mood- so it's juz weird. hahhaa.
(ok. the whole paragraph juz sounds wrong. I'm no lesbian ok. Get it right. OK. read on..)
I miss Arif. miss him. miss him. miss him. Just when i felt that closeness and warmth, he left. To KL i mean. Yeah, we do contact. But it's juz different. Alot different. Guess. I have to scacrifice minor stuff to gain other wonderful things in life. In this case, nt having his presence here in Singapore oftern but able to trust and believe in this long-distance relationship.
I felt exactly what my dear Atika felt when Arif was here. Each day wanting to see him. And the next. and next. and next. More and more eachtime. He was my dose of happiness and joy. Where every txt he sends me-no matter hw corney and lame- it's sweet and charming. The sight of him juz lighten and brighten day. Whispers of his name made my heart race. Holding his hands felt like an extention of mine. Breathing and beating the same heart beat as his'. Hugging him, not wanting to let it go at the same time felt like dancing in the moonlight. Kissing him felt like a rush of cool light breeze, making you wanna float and follow the direction of wind. Rainy day felt good, knowing that he'll be there to give you warmth. And how time passes so quickly w/o realising.
I sound so bollywood-dramatic, but isn't it all true, my dear blogger readers?
When you are falling for that someone and knowing that he is able to grab and catch u at the end of the fall. You feel like falling deeper.
All in all.
I miss him. so much.
Bila rindu,terkenang mu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang.
Aku rindu,sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi,jiwa ini,
bawa ku dlm pelangi melepasi segala hati ini.
Jauh angan ku lena,ku rasa kita bersama,
kau bawaku ke sana
ke alam kisah yg lama,kenangan di dalam jiwa.
bila tersedar semula,disisiku kau tiada
sukarnya ku pendam rasa,ingin ku luahkan semua.
Didn't know my malay is this good right?? hehe. Took it frm a song lar.
But it's the exect feeling w/o his presence right now.