missing you.
Sunday, April 24, 2005, 2:43 PM
Well, you noe Nat.. my theory.. to play better? It didn't work. I was confused. He's there, having to stil tru the whole match.. i feel bad for him. He's juz there for the last time i guess. To make me happy. Even so, after i asked him.. hw i play.. he's like "Umm.. i dunno. I didn't pay attention much" "So, how's ur bf's stick?" Yeah. He said that.
We had a long talk. It's hard ar. really. Well, i have to stay firm rite. It's my life. And wads the use of making him happy when i'm not rite? He's taking it slowly. Absorbing my sudden decisions. I hope he just move on with his life. Cuz i will. i think.
I'm weak lar. When he cried ytdy, i was still in doubts whether to gv him that 2nd chance. But not yet. really. i still need that space and time.