missing you.
Thursday, April 28, 2005, 11:27 PM
how much..
Today's Forecast
Someone who's just brilliant enough to keep you interested long-term is about to make an appearance. Are you ready? If you're not, better start working on that. One never knows when fated encounters will occur -- but you're due.
I guess. i know who's that someone. We talked for almost 5hours tis morining. Frm midnight to the crack of dawn. Yeah, tell me abt the bill ya. Things were getting serious after awhile. And it kept me thinking. So i asked him whether he's for real. It's just hard to believe. I'm like a nobody and he's a somebody. But he gave a sincere and honest truth. He wld love to speak to me face-to-face. And somehw, all i also see tis is short-term. Myb the end of season.
Anyway.
Cuz i've been hurt very deeply and i really not ready to take another hit.I'm not ready. Not now. Not yet that is.
How much i really love to juz let faith takes it toll...
How much i really want to juz fall back..
How much i wld really trust him and fall deeper for him..
i'm nt ready to take that ride. It's hard to trust a guy now. really. Unless he waits and hangs around. Give me a year or 2. Myb after i get my diploma. If he waits, he's worth it. For nw.. we'll juz see whether he's the man of his words.
What matters now is. my pbs. my friends. hockey. and soon my diploma. R/s shall put on hold. I'm happy now actually. Just confused at times. But hey. I'm happy. That all matters. Fuck with wad ppl have to say and bitch. LIfe is a beauty and too short to bother of wad ppl think.