missing you.
Sunday, April 24, 2005, 9:11 AM
Mdm Nur goes "Oh, that guy i saw you with?" "Nah, not a loss." "He's not that good looking, you can do better."
Gees. Thanx. I need that huh. Hahaha. Can't believe that tis cums frm my Science teacher.
Been spending more time with my friends esp Atika and Erma lately. Late night supper, dinner, lunch. It's weird to open up at first. Cuz i'm used to my bf's presence and well, i like to keep things myself.
A taste of his own turns out to be some serious shit. I'm not ready to jump into a r/s. Not yet. Right now, i juz need to be spending time with wad i've lost in the period of almost 4 years. Friends. Hockey. My life. And after being tru wad i've been. It's hard to trust anyone- a guy. I guess that always happened. Someone said he will wait for what it takes. Well, it's nice to hear.. but hard to believe. really. I keep telling him that. Saying it is easy, proving it is another. I'm sure ppl wld start bitchin abt me. People talk, i dun need to be a smart ass to noe that. It's a bitching world out that- esp in the hockey scene. Abt hw she juz got out a long-term r/s nw she's with tis guy. It must be rebound. Or she's with him cuz of fame. Or she dumped her bf, for him. Well, i can tell you upfront now it's not. He juz came in to the picture at the wrong time. I dun gv a hoot of who he is.
And school starting in July. So more focus on that. My parents spend hella of money on my education- the last thing i wld wan to do is dissappoint them. And retaking my Math to prove that idioitic sister of mine that i can pass it. Ass. bitch.
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Today is his bday. OK. i know it's best that i do not meet him. But that's is juz plain mean. I can't do it. Well, i'm still goin for the match later wit SRC. So, it's gd news huh. In the past, he wld made me choose between hockey or him. Obviously, i have to choose him. Just last week i was asked to make that decision. I choose playing the match with Police then in exchange i told him that i wld spend today with him. I guess, things are goin my way now. The team also need me. Not enuf U21 players.
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